Tiada Lagi Cinta; That Means No More Love From Me ♥
Monday, December 07, 2009
@ 12/07/2009 09:31:00 PM

RUFFEDGE!
(but seriously, mode should change to sein.)
(oh, and f.y.i. the black capped, second from the left, is MINE!)

Hello blog readers! i know, it has been ages since i last updated this blog of mine. hahaha! guess you readers must have been checking in to my blog to see if i had updated but was dissapointed when you see the same post for the past decades. hahaha! so.. F.Y.I. i'm using my bibik's lappy to update as it has no internet. because if i were to use the computer with the internet, i can assure you, i will not update. as.. i will go into my blog just to listen to the song, facebook-ing and watch videos at youtube. so, i'll just be cutting this and paste it on the blog. right!
next tuesday, i'll be going to malaysia to my aunt's malaysia house and to desaru. no longer going genting due to the fully booked rooms! pfft. but nevermind! at least i'm going to malaysia! huhu. and by the way. i'm going with cik ramlee's family a.k.a. my dad's best friend. hahaha! it's just a night at my aunt's house then, we head off to desaru for a two night stay! woo! hahaha! but i'm much more excited for the 28th to 30th december trip to KL! hahaha!
F.Y.I. i'm not going with my family. i'm going with izzati and her family and cousins. actually we are not cousins or what. we're best friends and our mothers are bestfriends too! hahaha! i know. and i can't wait. our hotel will be opposite petaling street! cool! so, we planned to sneak out in the night to go to petaling street and shop till you drop kind of thing! hahaha. well, wanna know the story behind the truth on why i go with her without my family. i'll tell you. so stay tuned! hahaha! kidding. it's because her mom gave her a choice, either get a room mate or stay home. since she's not that close with her cousins, she asked me to tag along! i'm like wow-wie! hahaha! we're taking the bus coach, so no big deal! hahaha!
moreover, we wanna see and comment on the malaysia's matrep/minahrep tak menjadi. hahaha! i can't wait! huhu. see! i'm all excited just talking about this. hahaha! alright! i'll be right back to blog again, i mean continue this post. so stay tuned. i'm meeting nadiah for a while. see ya'!

"bahu saya sentiasa sudi menadah air mata awak.."
(07-12-09 @ 13:08hours)

(3-4 hours later)

hey hey hey!
i'm back! hahaha! now, it's 17:44hours. i know. it was long right? well, actually no. it's because nadiah actually came to my house at around 15:00hours until 17:00hours. after she left, i went to do my prayers, and here i am. huhu. so.. yeah, today's posts' gonna be long. and i mean it. because i wanna "recite" everything. hahaha! so.. oh right! i wanna show you people a part that i've gotten from malay novels, the parts that gives a sting in my eye. sorry, but i'm lazy to translate it into english. so, here it goes;

this parangraph, was seen by the wife. when she reaches home, the lights were out but the laptop was on, she nosily checked the laptop of her husband's.the husband wrote for her. but sadly, she never did try to understand that her husband really do love her very much. :

Wajahmu lembut menyapa..
mengepung rasa, mengurung jiwa..
hatimu.. keras bak kerikil jalanan..
hatiku.. terasa sakit digores ketajamannya..
lantas.. kesakitan yang terasaku
lepaskan kata nistapun begitu..
hati ini tidak pernah tahu..
bagaimana untuk membencimu..
jua tidak pernah mampu untuk berhenti mencintaimu..
pun tidak pernah bisa menghapus lukisan wajahmu..
senyummu.. sering ada di setiap udara..
namamu.. terbisik di setiap nafas yang kusedut..
rindu ini.. hanya tersimpan untukmu.,cinta ini..
tercipta hanya untukmu..
(adapted from bebunga kasih)


hahaha! ain't it sweet? of course it is! i'm so in love with malay novels. wanna know the reason why? i'll tell you. it is because, it made me felt like i'm in the story itself. you know, it made me wonder about life. certain people has better life than others. it teaches me about life too. so yeah, i love novels! in fact, i'm reading one now, an english novel. titled; Would you? it's a modern love story. huhu.
oh right.. i'm blogging! a few days back, me, izzati and muhammad went bowling at yishun safra. and as usual, i won again! well, what can i saymore? i'm gifted. hahaha! kidding. maybe because i've practised. i guess? hmm.. nevermind. i've gotten 107 for both games! the rest had less than a 100. hahaha. sad story. oh!
that reminds me,this saturday, my mum's taking me to the challenger! i'm getting a laptop! pink one! hehehe. but i'm still unsure on what brand and what size should i get. frickle minded me. hahaha!
note to nadiah; "warning! tights are not pants eh!" hahaha! inner joke that you people no nothing about. seriously, i'm craving for macdonalds suddenly. maybe it's because, just now, nadiah said she was craving for hot fudge sundae. ooh.
so, last, last saturday; 281109, there was a family gathering beside mom's and dad's side. fun! i conducted a game, charades! it was freakingly funny! i've been laughing my ass off when abangamir did the paranormal activity thingy, while people trying to figure out what is he trying to do. the hint was that, a movie title.hahaha! it's playing on my mind right now, just thinking about it.
after that night, bella and keena a.k.a. my two best cousins, came to sleepover. we watched paranormal activity and stayed up. well, actually only me and keena stayed up after that, bella was sleeping soundly. then, me and keena went for a morning walk to 7-11 at around 6am. we talked about alot of stuffs. and how i wish they are sleeping over again. huhu. so much hot gossips to be shared! hahaha!
okay. i'm watching amazing race! meghan and chayne won. but i don't really like meghan because, she's arrogant. dang! okay. but still, congrats to them, they won, officially the whole race. 8 countries in 21 days! huhu. oh!
you people watched the white chicks? hahaha! i love that show. it cracked me up! maybe i'm gonna watch it again. huhu. tomorrow, i'm helping my mum at my primary school. SQPS of course! help her to clean the artroom and so on.
i miss j-bot. and especially suraini!
by the way, if suraini is reading this, babe! i got lots of stuff to share with you. moreover, your mascara you ordered is coming in on the 26th december. i'll pay for you first aye? okay. i wanna do my reading. anything text me. and keena, bella, izzati! this wednesday hangout jom after asar! okay, text me! love you people! Qis here, signin' off! byebye.
i'll post more on the oncoming activities alright? ((:

" Siapa pun saya tetap akan cemburu kalau dapat tempat yang lebih istimewa daripada saya di hati awak.."
(07-12-09 @ 21:37hours)
Thursday, November 12, 2009
@ 11/12/2009 09:50:00 PM
A funny incident happened just a while ago.
less then FIVE minutes ago;
it was 9:52pm and im using the computer with muhammad.
when suddenly..
me: *laugh and shout*
muhammad: *laughs*
Bibik in toilet: KAK!
me & muhammad still laughing!
bibik in toilet: KAKAK!
me: ye! pe bik?
Bibik in toilet: BIBIK NAK MINTAK TOLONG!
i was feeling a little scared. thought got ghost or what bibik saw.
me: Ape nye?
bibik: TOLONG AMBILKAN TUALA BIBIK! BIBIK LUPA!
me and muhammad laughed our ass off!
me: takpe la bik. kite kan sejenis, keluar aje! *laughs so hard till cry*
i went and gave her, her towel!
WHAT A LOL OF AN EXPERIENCE!
OKAY. UPDATED; FOR THE TIME BEING.
HEHHE!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
@ 10/11/2009 09:29:00 PM

so, HELLO!! exams almost over and believe it or not, i have combined science tomorrow and i have yet to study. i'll mug this whole night, i tell you. haha. okay. so, my weekends? nadiah followed me to ciknab home. we sleepover there. gerek. but then, that night, J-bot conference was just a teeny weeny while. aww. i know. so, yeah. i donch know why im hungry these few days. puberty? i donch know. hahaha. wth. okay, so, ciknab was like feeding us wooo. haha. and we slept in aircon room with feroz. and my back is soooo straight. ahhaha! and then, the next day which is today, watched tv for the whole day and off, to home. weee! funfun. what a weekend i tell you. so, on top, just another random picture. enjoy not admiring it. ahha. so, tomorrow's combined science. then, tuesday, maths ppr 2 and history. then wednesday, fnn and malay lis. compre. then, holiday. ahhha! kinda. im lazy to bold the words. so, you should know what should i bold i guess. hahahah! wth. okay. so, then, friday. will be jalan raya-ing with jemaahs - generus. hopefully gonna be fun. since they long time never see me. so, yeah. nadd, far away ka pa? haha! wth sia. im like making these certain voices which are irritating but fascinating. ahaha! its like miss swan's voice but high pitch a little. and i love the video paolo posted at facebook. a dance on so you think you can dance on a song, mad. cooool. very sweet. and after watching it, i feel like dancing! can i? can i? teach me please. hahaha. i know how to dance. just that i dont have any idea on what to dance. huhu. okayokay. less talk more story; so continue from the previous post below * looks down* this is the continous of it. its original ohkay! haha. so, enjoy! :
(chapter 3 and 4)

"Oh My Gosh! Krystle! You are so beautiful! The dress fits you nicely you know. You must be lucky to have Michael to yourself. He is such a gentleman and also, a good wedding dress picker." Exclaimed Narelle, my bridesmaid. Narelle is also my best friend in the whole world. She was always there when I needed her apart from Michael obviously. "It’s your big day now, Krystle. Aren’t you excited?" Narelle joked. The way she joked, reminds me of Michael. "I am excited." I lied. I am really nervous as well as excited. Mixed feelings were there. Somehow, I got a weird feeling about that day. My heart was pounding quite fast out of a sudden. My phone wasn’t ringing at all. Michael said he would call me when he reaches. I looked at the time, it was two o’ clock. One hour before the wedding starts! Where is he? "Krystle… I’m sorry." Michael’s voice was heard out of nowhere. "Michael!" I searched for him. He was nowhere in sight. I took my phone and dialed Michael’s number. "The number you have dialed is out of the country area. Please, try again later." What?! Out of the country area? Michael, where are you? Please, don’t leave me here… alone… "Krystle! There’s a letter for you." Narelle said. "Who is it from?" I asked. "I don’t know. There is this man, he came up to me and gave me this letter. He told me to give it to you and he said Sorry. But he looked a little familiar. I wasn’t sure who. Read it, maybe you know whom is it from. Oh! And you’re wanted, in about half-an-hour." Narelle said. I nodded my head, a sign of understood. I opened up the letter just when I was left alone in the room as Narelle had to help my mum.
Krystle…
I’m sorry for the last minute call.
I got to go at the very last minute.
We’re not meant for each other.
I belong to Amy, my one and only true love.
She didn’t accept me in first place.
But suddenly, today’s morning,
She called and says she loves me.
I was shocked and happy.
She is the one for me.
Hope you have the best wedding.
Michael.

"No… No! It can’t be true. I’m dreaming! Michael! Michael, no! You can’t do this to me! Michael, no…" I dropped to the ground as I let gravity takes over me. I curved my body into a ball so that I was hugging my legs. Tears falling like rain. My whole make-up was ruined. My dress was double ruined. I couldn’t believe what was happening. My mind was flashing the images of me and Michael. It was flooded with the images. Within a minute, the rain poured down. The door opened and Narelle came. "Krystle! Krystle, what happened? You look crushed!" Narelle ran up to me and hugged me. She saw the letter that was left by my side; she took it and reads it. She covers her mouth, avoiding herself from saying anything. I cried my heart out. When something else caught my eye, there was someone at the window. I ran up to the window and shouted, "Michael… don’t leave me please… Michael… No!"

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My phone rang. I woke up with a jump. I was relieved that what I had just now was just a dream. I buried my face into my hands and then pushed up my fringe. The ringing of my phone made me jump again. I took my phone and it was Michael. I answered, "Hey…" I said. "Morning sleepy head. How was your night?" he asked. "Well, unexpected; and a little scary too. I cried over you, you know that?" I laughed. "Oh yeah, tell me about it. Are you ready?" he asked. "What time is it?" I asked while I yawned. "Ermm, twelve? Did you oversleep? Rough night huh?" he laughed at his own joke. "What?! Oh shoot!" I said and I stood up too fast to grab my towel that i almost lose my balance. "See you, sweetheart!" he said and ended the call. I raced against the time. One hour, I said to myself. I’ve never raced against the time before. I mean I did but that was ages ago. I’ve always get myself ready around two hours. One hour is going to be hard for me. I am panicking. No time must be wasted. I turned the radio on and rushed to the toilet right after I grabbed my towel. I showered and brushed my teeth. I did some facial wash too. Within half-an-hour, I was out of the toilet, a record break! I was always out of the toilet about forty-five minutes. I was proud of course. I then, went to my closet and nightmare! I don’t know what to wear as there were too many varieties to choose from. Suddenly I have a solution. I closed my eyes and pick two dresses out randomly and lay them on my bed. Not bad. I picked the one that I was thinking even though my eyes were closed. Nice pick Krystle! I wore the one that has flowers and a white ribbon on it. Perfect, I thought to myself. Did my make up and dried my hair. And I’m done! I’m such a record breaker! All of it including the bath time was estimated about one hour straight. I switched off the radio and went to my bag. Everything was in it. The door bell rang. I looked out to the window and there was Michael’s car. I’m guessing he is at the door that rang the bell. I smiled and skipped happily to the door. I opened the door slowly. There Michael was, standing at my door. He is in business-casual attire. Michael was very smart looking but the only thing that really makes him stand out was his innocent face, his green hazel eyes and his smile. "Are you done admiring me, sweetheart?" he joked. "Not yet actually." I said, playing along. He laughed. "You’re beautiful, sweetheart. And you managed to get dressed within an hour, I must say, I’m impressed." He said. "Well, I’m a record breaker." I said, proudly. "Shall we?" he asked, reaching for my hand. "We shall." I said and took his hand. He led me to the car and he opened the door for me, as usual. We drove off. "Where are we going?" I asked him curiously. "To see our wedding clothes of course. I’ve picked it out. You’re going to love it. I’m sure." He said confidently. "I trust you." I said. He looked at me and smiled for a while and then shifted his sight to the road. Eyes on the road, Michael. "Did you dream the same dream you had again last night?" Michael said sounding a little worried. "Well, sort of. It was scary. I woke up with shouting your name. It’s a good thing I live alone. If not, my parents will be rushing to me and ask what happen." I laughed. My parents aren’t divorced nor are they separated. They thought I am too dependable when I am with them, so I bought a house and live alone. Even though it is too big for a one-person-house, I could still manage by myself, so I proved to them that I am a miss independent. "Is it that bad? I mean your dream, is it really that bad?" Michael asked, still worried. "Well, you could put it that way." I said. "I’m just curious. In your dream, I left you a note right? What does it says?" Michael asked. "Something about a girl named Amy… something like that." I said, truthfully. "Amy…" Michael whispered loud enough for him to hear. "You okay?" I asked, looking at him as he was restless. "Err… yeah." He answered simply. But I know, he wasn’t okay, so I said, "Okay, drop the bomb. What is it? You’re not okay." I knew there were something fishy and an unexplainable thing going on. "It’s nothing. Can we change subject? Have you eaten?" he said distracting me. "Hah! No. I woke up at twelve and got ready, you expect me to eat?" I laughed, completely distracted from the subject before as my stomach rumbles. "I have to treat you then." Michael said while he chuckle a small laughter. "So, we’ll go for your late breakfast now and my early lunch. As we don’t want to see our wedding dress with an empty stomach would we?" he joked. "Sure. I’m starving!" I held my stomach as it makes some weird noises. "Uh-oh, we better find food. Food rescue, on the way!" he said in between his laughs with one hand punched the air like a superman. I laughed so hard after that. Michael really knows how to make me feel better with one of his lame and ridiculous jokes and that is one of the things i love about him.

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So, im Qis, singin' off! wooo. mugmugmug all the way~
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
@ 10/06/2009 10:13:00 PM



HELLO; MOVING ON.


hahahha! just a random picture and i loveeeee my hair; dont jealous eh. took it just now before going out to Bik Baby's home as there was a gathering but too bad, bella and teena not there. but nehmine at least my hair on top lawa. ahaha. wooo. okay. diam. oh yeah, the other day, went raya-ing with j-bot was the best. it was the boomz. haha. cant wait for next outing. woo. but then, tomorrow i donch know if im following them or not to library. haha. depends on my mood kay? haha. and fairus said he'll cry if im not going. cry la. ahaha. jahat nye. then, 16th of october, will be going out with the generus. wooo. abit only excited coz get to meet titi lala and nana. hahha. boomzboomzboomz. okay, so, im gonna post my "book" story aye. read read. if you got nothing to do, read kay? shankiu!






(chapter 1 & 2)



"Krystle, sweetheart?" his voice disrupted the silence and the peaceful night. I looked at him, deep into his eyes and smiled. "I’m here, Michael." I said casually. "You okay there, sweetheart? Looks like you were in deep thoughts. You were like in the outer space." He joked. "No. Not really. I just have some things on my mind nowadays." I answered with a forced smile on my face. "Something is not right is there? Mind telling me?" Michael said and sat down beside me. I looked at the view, trying not to think what I was thinking. The darkness is chasing the light away. The trees swaying slowly from side to side, the cool breeze made me shiver. The dinner we had just now was in our stomach, still digesting. The cold touch of his hand was on my face, cupping it and shaping it into his hand. His thumb was rubbing my eyebrow softly. I looked at him and he smiled. I rested my head on his shoulders while he wrapped his hands around me and mine were wrapping around him. I could never resist his hugs as they were very warm and so full of love. This is perfect, just like how I imagined it to be. Michael beside me, in the perfect night, arms wrapped around each other was just so perfect. "Isn’t it beautiful?" I asked him and tighten my arms around him. "Mm-hmm…" he answered. I sighed when my thoughts were back with things I don’t wish to remember. "Michael, nowadays, I have dreamt a lot of nightmares… I’m scared, Michael." I said truthfully and I looked up to him so that we were at an eye level. "Sweetheart, what are you scared of?" he asked, concerned. "I’m scared of losing you, Michael. You mean a lot to me. You are my whole life, now, Michael." I said while tears roll down my cheeks. "Hey, don’t cry, sweetheart. You’re making it difficult for me now." He wiped away my tears. "What do you mean; I’m making it difficult for you now?" I asked curiously and a little hurt as I thought he was going to leave me at that time. He sighed softly and unlocked his arms around me and he stood up heading for his car. Just as I thought, he was leaving me. All these time, the dinner and the being alone together, was the last of us, he was bidding me goodbye. "How can I not see it? Krystle, why are you so stupid? How could you not see it?" I said in my heart. I buried my face into my hands and tears streaming down my face, wetting my palm.
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"Krystle Raine Green, will you have the honor to wear this ring and be my lovely wife?" I remove my hands from my face just when I heard his voice and saw Michael kneeling down on the ground, with a ring in his hands. The ring was sparkling like a shining star. "How’d… you… Michael!" I shouted as I was confused. He chuckle my favourite laugh of his. "Yes? What? You think I’m going to leave you? Expect the unexpected, sweetheart. Would you marry me Krystle Raine Green?" he said with a smile stapled to his face. Michael stood up just when I stood up. I wrapped my arms around him again but this time, tighter. "Is that a yes?" he asked as if he didn’t understand what I just did. Isn’t actions supposed to speak louder than words? I laughed at my own thoughts loud enough for Michael to hear it. "I’ll assume that as a yes than? Correct me if I’m wrong please." He joked. He carried me and swung me around. I laughed and we dropped to the ground. We sat up straight and he took my hand. I smiled while he slides the ring to where it was meant to be, my finger. He looked at my finger with the ring on and said, "It’s the perfect size and it’s beautiful on you, sweetheart." I smiled and threw my hands around him. He hugged me back while I gave him a peck on the cheek. He took a glance at his watch and said, "Uh-oh. It’s late and you should be home, sweetheart. Come on." He stood up and reached for my hand. He pulled me up and swipes me off my feet and carried me into the car. I just laughed at his quick actions and continue to hug him and also, I’m afraid if he ever let me fall. I gave him another peck on the cheek. "Thank you." He said with a smile. I couldn’t stop smiling. Maybe I am too happy. We were in the car by then, with Michael driving me home. I looked out the car window and whispered ‘thank you’ at the stars. At last, I am Michael’s and forever will be. That’s when I know, my nightmares are not real. "Sweetheart, you said there were nightmares that you experienced about before. Tell me." He said but eyes were on the road. "It doesn’t matter anymore." I said smiling. "Oh please?" Michael pleaded. "I dreamt that when we were having our wedding day, you didn’t come and there was a note you left for me saying..." I said with closed eyes. I dreamt for almost every night now and it’s the same dream that I had. Isn’t it strange? That’s what I thought. It’s like as if a kind of message telling me to end the relationship with Michael before I get hurt. The dreams were so surreal and scary. It was like as if it is going to happen one fine day. I buried my face into my hands to hide my tears and to shake those images out of my head. Michael knows I am worried if that ever happens. He didn’t do anything to console me as he knows I needed some space. I appreciated it. By the time I looked out to the window, I’ve reached home. Michael automatically stops the car and he unfastened his seatbelt and gets off the car. He went to my side to open the door for me. I felt like a princess. He opened the door and I got out. When I was out of the car, he closed the door and followed me to my house door. Along the way, I held his arm, wishing tonight would never end and will go on like this forever. At my front door, we stopped and I looked at him, face-to face. "Thank you, Michael; for the wonderful and the greatest evening ever." I said. "Your welcome, sweetheart, well, actually I should say thank you as you accepted my gift." He looked at the ring he gave me which was at my ring finger. "It’s beautiful." I agreed with him. "Yeah, hey, tomorrow you’re free?" he asked. "Sure, why?" I asked him back. "I’ll pick you up and we’ll be looking for wedding dresses." He said smiling. I hugged him and said "Tomorrow, at one. I’ll be waiting." I whispered to his ear. I had to let go of him and home is where I should be. As I wanted to open the door, he pulled me and our lips met. I chuckled at his actions. I was the one who ended the romantic moment and said "Goodnight." He smiled, "Goodnight, sweetheart. Call me if anything, alright? Oh, and don’t be scared. I’m here for you." He said and I went into my house while he headed to the car. I saw him taking out his phone; I wondered who was he calling at night? I went up to my room. Just when I was in my room with the door shut, my phone rang. "Hello?" I answered. "I love you" Michael said and the call ended. I ran to my window and there he was, at his car. When he saw me, he gave me a flying kiss and went into his car; and he drove off. I smiled to myself and headed for my bed and plunged into it like as if it was a swimming pool. I laughed at the memories just now. He was such a gentleman and a sweet one. Guess I am lucky to have him. I took my towel and went for a bath. Right before I stepped into my bathroom, my phone rang again but this time, it was a message. I put my towel aside and went to my phone. The message reads, "Tomorrow at one sweetheart. Don’t forget. Love you. – Michael" "Love you too Michael." I said to the phone and skipped my way to toilet to have my goodnight bath. After my night bath, I changed to my pajamas and lie down on my bed. I wanted to switch off the light, but then, Michael’s photo was exactly beside me. I took the photo and smiled. "Goodnight honey, sweet dreams. See you tomorrow at one. I love you." I kissed the photo goodnight and switched off the light. I hugged my pillow and smiled myself to sleep. I couldn’t wait for tomorrow to come as tomorrow will always be better.
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haha. nice nice nice? demand for more, and i'll post it for you people. ayeayeaye?

so, i updated. yay? haha. i lazy to put photos la. later kay? one day. ahaha. (:



Kay, BYE!